I come in peace today. lol.
At the age of 27, i've realized i've got some adjustments to make in my life. To name the core of my problem, I would like to admit that I have a BAD ASS TEMPER. Not exactly sure where the root of this temper comes from. I've had a bad attitude ever since I can remember - my father used to tell me to be "nice". My response? "I am nice!" My boss told me "I want you to be nice" - "I AM NICE"... Am I not?
My solution to this matter is control.
This is going to be one hell of a journey. There are tons of methods i.e., count to 10 backwards, breathe slowly, walk away, convert it to a happy thought, etc etc etc!
Who is the nicest person with the most controlled temper/anger/attitude? Hilary Clinton? Maya Angelou? Mother Theresa?
I have a prerogative and I must achieve it, in order to rise to the top I will need to pave my road without burning my bridges. How else would I get to the other side, right?
In korean, i would be a SSAGAJI! I like it, i really do but it's starting to become a problem. *sigh*
Is it really worth it? I feel good after i've blown up... how can i possibly get rid of something that feels good? Well, the other person facing me is probably not feeling so hot. Okay, what's wrong with that? That is the point, isn't it? No. No one deserves to be treated like shit, even if you don't like them. Everyone, even the biggest asshole or bitch deserves to be treated well. Do they really? Per Amit, yes. shit! Okay, think of the bigger picture of what we are trying to achieve here. Building a name, an image, a vision - you need a good attitude to be sitting in the chair of freedom.
I guess I have a given opportunity in my hands and it is my job to rotate the chinese medicine balls very carefully, not to let it fall, not to let it touch but just to listen to the beautiful music i am able to create with the two balls. Although it is far too large to fit in my hands I will need to control it. Think deeper. Think big. Think peace. Think green.
Transform this flaw into a positive trait, full force, soar through and dodge the bullets.
Thank you for reading...
Congratulations Jannis on your 5 year anniversary and engagement!
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